Friday, December 04, 2015

Advent Sock Day 4

FL woke at 2.30am in agony.  I gave him a top up morphine pill that saw him through to 5am when I managed to get him up.  He then slept bent over the kitchen table - the most comfortable position for a Myeloma sufferer, I am told.
This morning I managed to arrange a house call from his GP.  She is going to talk to the hospital about a short stay in the local hospice to get his pain under control, as he is suffering to an unacceptable level.  She also took a blood sample to check his white and red cell counts, in case he needs a blood transfusion sooner rather than later. 
I administered half a satsuma and a tin of ravioli.  No point in having a battle over broccoli when he doesn't want to eat at all.


Continue sock A by knitting 4 rounds with a color determined by the year you joined Ravelry.
2007-2008 - Red
I was an early adopter, and joined Ravelry when it was still "beta".

I worked 4 rows of grey first, in attempt to even up my two socks.  Simple arithmetic is beyond me today, so I can't tell if this is going to work or not.

Thank you so much for all your kind words and cheer-leading.
There isn't anything anyone can do.  But thank you for asking :)

24 comments:

Cherie said...

Blessings to you, Roo.

Emma said...

Please accept my virtual love and {{{hugs}}}. I hope that FL is controlled, one way or another. You are both in my thoughts.

Did I say "crap"?!

Mairead Hardy said...

Bugger... Sending hugs and positive vibes that they can get some suitable pain relief for FL. You will both be better for it.

Socks are looking good!

Aara said...

Prayers for peace and freedom from pain.

MCKGJK said...

I'm a long term follower of your blog but I'm not sure I've commented before. But I wanted to say hello today. It's heartbreaking to hear these latest developments, even though I don't "know" you or FL in real life. I wish there was something someone could do to flick a switch and make things better. Seeing as that's not possible, I hope that knowing that others around you are sending you lots and lots of love, whether you know them or not, helps a tiny tiny bit.

K.Line said...

I'm giving you all my positive vibes for getting the pain under control. Pain is so shitty (to understate it ridiculously).

MaryinTN said...

Huggs and positive mojo to you and FL!!

Taran said...

I'm so sorry. I hope they can do something for his pain.

Jodie said...

There are no words, really, Roo. Know that I and your many followers (known or not) are wishing for peace and strength for you. I hope that our care gives you even the smallest amount of comfort. Take care of yourself

Cazz said...

((Hugs))

Knitlass said...

Hope you both manage over the weekend - with pain and sleep. Knitting keeps us going.

Saffi said...

Thinking of you both this weekend.

Saffi said...

Thinking of you both this weekend.

Lizzi said...

Keep doing what you do.

Tinned ravioli? I haven’t had that in years - quite put me in the mood.
x

poppyinstitches said...

thinking of you, sending lots of love x

not had tinned ravioli for ever so long, sounds like a perfect supper after work tonight!

Fiona said...

A rare commenter here, but I love your posts. This one is tinged with sadness, but "in sickness and in health" you are doing your best to support FL. Well done for finding the strength to share.

Carmen Bouchard said...

May the Force be with you both. Thinking of you doesn't feel quite enough.

Catherine Cottingham said...

Like many others, I love to read your blog. So so sorry that things are so difficult for you and FL. Take care of yourself. With kindest thoughts.

coyotewoman said...

Roo, I can't stop thinking of you two. Woke this morning hoping you both had a restful night.
Forgive me if I state the obvious but clearly a PCA is an important next step. As a Home Infusion nurse, we used Patient(and family) controlled analgesia (PCA) with excellent results. Often patients and family feared over-medication but they are very, very safe, easy to use, difficult if not impossible to abuse and can greatly improve quality of life. Twenty four hour doses are titrated according to needs with small doses administered continuously to provide baseline control and predetermined boloses can be delivered by patient for periods of http://www.nhslanarkshire.org.uk/Services/PalliativeCare/Documents/Guidelines%20for%20the%20use%20of%20Subcutaneous%20Medications%20in%20Palliative%20Care.pdf

Violet said...

My mother was taken into her local Marie Curie hospice a few times at the end of her illness to control her pain. They have so many more resources available there - they will be able to help FL get some quality of life back. Sending you both good wishes.

Jennifer Hill said...

I commented a few posts ago and said that my mum when similarly ill had benefitted from help from the NHS...what I MEANT to say was Social Services. However, not only am I sure you're on top of all that, but it sounds like you've moved on from that stage anyway, though they were fast and helpful regarding help at home when needed. I wish now my mum had gone to a hospice, but its so hard at the time to know what's best and what's to come, so hard to think straight at all through the stress, and always far easier with hindsight. If its this painful to read your posts I can only imagine how painful and stressful it is for you both, but I'm sending you my very best wishes. Jen PS this feels a silly thing to suggest, but would a tens machine have any benefit at all? (The sort used in labour; it helped me in that type of intense pain). Am following your sock progress : )

TempestKnits said...

Sending much love to you and FL. If it's any help (and I hope this isn't annoying/prying etc)., I have had experience personally of managing pain with morphine and the 'secret' if there can possibly be one, is to not allow breakthrough pain. I know as one who is doggedly determined not to 'pop pills' that the temptation is to rough it out until you really need the blighters, but this does in fact cause a huge challenge to maintaining adequate pain relief. Please assure FL that this is not 'giving in to the pain' (as I often used to protest). My pain specialist did in fact know better as I found when I followed his advice (even though I was determined to prove him wrong, to my detriment)! Thank goodness for soothing hand work at this time, Ruth - I know this can only offer a little comfort to you at a very difficult time for you both.

paisleyapron said...

Thinking of you two. Praying for excellent pain relief for FL, perfect peace for you.

ambermog said...

In our hearts and thoughts as always xx